This article reflects the researcher’s dilemmas when doing research within her own organization. The findings are based on the author’s experience of being both researcher and educational coordinator at a Danish psychiatric hospital.

Empirical examples from a research project on student nurses’ learning processes during their clinical placement in psychiatry are analysed in relation to the researcher’s position: outsider – hybrid – insider. One condition of doing research within one’s own organization is that the researcher is constantly willing to negotiate her researcher position(s). She has many roles; her function could be compared to that of graphic equalizer in a radio. Depending on which context the researcher finds herself in, her role changes from one moment to the next, similar to the scales of the equalizer.